The Gratitude Part

The Gratitude Part

     Today I sit to write about gratitude something I only half understood a week ago, and I am filled with joy.

     I thought that gratitude was being thankful for all the goodness we have been given in this life.  Turns out you can be thankful for all of the things you perceive as not so good too!

     I joined a group on facebook called 40 Miracles, 40 days. We had to buy the book, "Make Miracles in Forty Days," by Melody Beattie.  Read it and be on a group call Saturday morning with coach Mai.  My friend D told me the group was wonderful and she had done the last round, so good that in fact she was joining in for the next round.  We were given a random partner and told to write in our journals things that we wanted that felt out of reach and out of control for us.  Then every morning when we awaken we are to write for 10 minutes on what we feel grateful for.  I mean everything.  The hardest for me to understand was feeling grateful for the negatives.  So I have been doing this for 9 days now.  I can not believe how differently I feel.  I was not even aware of some of the feelings I had about things.  The greatest part is that I send my email every day to my partner and she only sends back love.  No judgements, no fixing.  Pure, honest love.  You make no comments on the others words, you read it, feel it and send back love.  It is beautiful.  I won't lie, the realization that I had so many "not feel good things" to write has shaken me to the core. But, good for me........  I am a person who tells everyone to "get it out, or you'll get a cancer" I encourage people to open their souls and let it out, cry, whatever they need.  But, I was not doing it myself.  Not on purpose mind you.  I thought I had it under control.  I think I was so worried about being judged or fixed that I was gonna handle it my self.  (After all, I am a life coach).  Well, Im here to tell you, this is worth it.  I can not imagine how I am gonna feel after 40 days.  My inspiration for writing is coming at an incredible speed now.  One of my miracle wishes is that I can get clear with my grief work.  With all of the clutter I have been getting out, I feel open to inspiration and my mind IS clear.  Feels like a miracle already.  How do any of us function with all of that stuff in our heads?  Little stuff, big stuff, annoyances, petty to important.  It all adds up!  Changes who we are, who we are becoming.  Yey!!